mommy2two’s blog

To start out, my Spring semester is officially over. So no more classes until June 2nd when my other 2 start up for Summer I. My grades this semester are as follows:
POL123: A,
SSC328: A-,
REL401: B-,
COM130:A,
CRM332: A.

Not too shabby, but those minuses bother me. Why can't there be solid grades? Gah. I'm hoping to graduate from Saint Leo with Honors, Cum Laude to be exact... if I can maintain a 3.67 (which is what I have now) then I can graduate with those specific honors. That's my goal so I hope to accomplish it... The A- really bugs me; I was a point off from a solid A due to my second exam in that class. I sucked at it but I was rushing and not researching thoroughly throughout the book for the answers. :(

And Ben will be home soon. I'm so excited- not too much longer! Although his friend Andre is coming in from the Netherlands for a few days. They were planning on going to Orlando to see a show but since it pissed me off, I made a big fuss about it. So big a fuss that he told the guy they can't go. I kinda feel bad about it but it's just not fair that I'm going to be excluded like that... Especially when this time was supposed to be all about us and a vow renewal but instead it's not. We don't have the money; I don't have a front tooth; and I lost the motivation to plan it. So voila! No ceremony. However, prior to the visit, I have picked up lingerie (a first since I was pregnant and felt sexy in all my huge belly glory!), a Wii and assorted games, clothes for Ben, and a r/c truck for him. So plenty to welcome him home. It's been a long deployment but we've gotten through it. Had some ups and downs but we made it. Wish we could've saved more money but oh well, that's the way the cookie crumbles.

I have become really stressed out and really short- tempered as time has gone on. I just need a recharge. Some time for myself. When Ben gets home, I want to go to the beach with some magazines, and maybe a textbook. Spend some time alone to be more than a mom. I also hope to check out yoga classes and maybe the gym too. I just need that recharge, burn off some steam, get out my frustrations. Time to just be Alexis, not a Mommy. Leanna and Carly are both testy lately.. both clingy as well.

I need to clean the house. I've been organizing things and mopped both bathrooms. I'll need to vacuum and mop the night before. Do laundry the two days prior, including the bedsheets. Make the bed the morning of. Nothing too crazy which is good. The day prior I have to go to the dentist to start the impressions for my crown for my tooth. That's giving me some hope that it can be completed before we go to Orlando. But I doubt it. Hopefully once we get home.

In regards to going to Orlando, we are planning on going to Animal Kingdom and Sea World. I've also set up a character breakfast at one of the Disney resorts. The characters are Daisy, Goofy, Mickey, Minnie, Donald. Leanna will love that and I think that Carly will, too. The cost of breakfast is about $25 per adult and the kids are free. It's for the day we leave but that's the only time that was open and I definitely wanted to get those characters because of Leanna's obsession. I hope that my MIL will still be in Orlando at that time to go with us and that she doesn't miss it.

today was our two year anniversary. you broke my heart by being selfish enough to NOT call , text, or email me today.

3 days since i last got an email. tomorrow will make 4, the longest we've ever gone without communication. in this modern day and age, there are still glitches. can i tell you how much this sucks?

at least i got the diaper bag i wanted today, and will hopefully be able to file the tax return tomorrow. i'm even considering taking the refund loan check, hmmm.

i miss my hubbins. and i love him even more!

3 days since i last got an email. tomorrow will make 4, the longest we've ever gone without communication. in this modern day and age, there are still glitches. can i tell you how much this sucks?

at least i got the diaper bag i wanted today, and will hopefully be able to file the tax return tomorrow. i'm even considering taking the refund loan check, hmmm.

i miss my hubbins. and i love him even more!

What do you do with the cards and letters you receive?  Do you keep them all, just keep the photos, throw them away? 
Inspired by jacolily.

I'm a packrat with these things. They go into shoeboxes and then get packed away from there. I don't reread them either so it makes no sense.

Well, after a long day full of cranky sleepy and sick kids, here I am. And my house is quiet. Silence truly is golden! =) Despite Leanna's cold and crankiness, she did AWESOME with our photos today. She got into the props at the photo studio but that's about the worst that it got. Carly was truly a ham for the camera but it was so hard keeping those fingers out of her mouth! We got some cute photos of them together, too, so that goal has been met (we tried back in August but no dice there). We ended up with: 1 10x13 dual photo, 1 8x10, 2 5x7, at least 4 3.5x5, 40wallets, 6 valentine's day cards (that was the package), and then 8 3.5x5's of 2 poses, and 2 5x7's with 4 wallets of the same poses, as well as a 5x10 collage type thing with a frame already. All of them will be in in 2 weeks and then I'm faced giving a majority of them away to friends and family. It's crazy the amount of money that gets spent on other people.

Well enough babbling about photos. I'm off to go to sleep.

I LOVE YOU BEN!!

Anyhow, my sister is going to abort. Can I say how much this angers me? She's financially stable, she can do it emotionally, and hell, our mom and my dad would help her out with any and everything! I would even go there to help her, and have offered her to MOVE IN with me. I also have friends who would love a baby of their own, even one that may have Hep C (my sister has it) and to think that my sister would abort when people would love to have her child and be in her position pisses me the hell off. I haven't said this to her because I'm trying to be supportive but DAMN, it's so fucking hard.

Another thing.. Ben is having a shitty ass time on the boat and is miserable. Which sucks for him and I can understand him venting to me but taking it out on me is a no-no. He's being such a dick and is basically ignoring everything I'm saying in my emails and questions that I'm asking. Hopefully he realizes how much of a dick he's being and gets over himself. The cute e-card was a start but he has some serious attitude to adjust.

We have thrush. AGAIN. Lucky for me I have my Nystatin, my compound cream and GV to help out. But Carly goes to the ped tomorrow for a rx.

/end rant

On a happier note... Carly has discovered her toes! :) It's so cute watching her grab them and try to eat them. And Leanna is a coloring monster (good and bad). I woke up this morning to find her covered in brown and orange marker. She didn't color on anything but herself and her coloring books which is good, but it was hilarious.

I always have so much to say yet I don't get it out. I love my LJ but when I post, I like comments and to hear people's opinions, but that doesn't happen. *sigh* So here I am and I'm updating here due to the above reasons.
Last night I was totally wiped and went to bed at 815 but was woken up shortly thereafter because Pepper wanted to go out. I was then up until almost 10pm. I went back to sleep and at some point, Carly decided to wake up and play for a good while. My horrendous headache ruined some of the fun of watching her play so I took something for my headache and she ended up going to sleep. It was cute because she hasn't done that ever before.
Lately I've been feeling very drained and worn out. I just want Ben home and all of the stress I've endured to just go away. Once he gets home, we'll be out of debt totally, I'll be one semester closer to my BA, and our family will be reunited again. I just can't wait until then.
I have so much more to say but Carly's awake. Alas, the job of a mommy never ends.

i really need ben here lately. im just so drained and physically sick over it. my stomach gets all tied up in knots over how emotionally and physically worn i am.

I can't believe that when I log onto USAA.com that my credit card balance is a whopping $9200. Holy fuck, batman! I know $4000 is from Ben and I and the rest is the settlement over his car repo (i'm regretting that part). I'm just shellshocked to see the balance that high. But, thank goodness for our monies that will come in next year.

Carly's first tooth (bottom left) has fully come in today. Her bottom right is starting to poke through as well. She's got teeth at barely 4 months old! WoW. Same with Leanna when she was Carly's age, so I guess Ben and I make early teethers. Carly is a happy baby, except for her teething but those fits thankfully don't last that long.

Leanna is potty training little by little each day. She pees when I tell her to on the potty (at Wendy's house, too!) and it took her 2hours to pee through a pair of panties because she was sleepy. She repeats whatever you tell her to and let me tell you, hearing her say 'monkey' and other things is funny as all hell.Toddlers are amazing people as they expand their vocabulary.

I really wish Ben was here to see all these things with me. It's just so hard explaining them via email because I sweat I forget a lot of the cute things that happen throughout the day when I email him. :(